| Yeah so I haven't updated this journal in a while - I have been on my xanga more, but I really haven't updated that one either. I took a break from life this break - from everything. Computers, piano, and etc. I needed it so much. Now I have to go back tommorrow :( Oh well this is going to be a tough semester for me. This may be the last post I write for a while - or it may not...I dunno.
But truly I need to practice a MINIMUM of 3 hours a day, but I really should do about four to five. That makes me sad, but I need to have my music learned and memorize by March 22...but my goal is Febuary 22....I think a month of cleaning will help me feel ready and secure for the permission jury. I will have to trust that God will help me get through this semester. If I trust Him and try my best, everything will work out according to His will. So semester....here I come.... | comments: Leave a comment   |
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| Man I feel sick. I was worse earlier today and yesterday. I felt so bad...hopefully I will be better tommorrow. I have to work - I called in sick kinda short notice and I feel awful about it. I genuinely thought I would be better, but I was still pretty loopy...and didn't feel comfortable driving. This has been one nasty sinus infection....yuck.
Things have been going well. Dad is getting better. School is school. SOmethings are going really well and I couldn't be happier. Job is going very well (hopefully they don't think I am a slacker after tonight!). I am excited about school ending soon. But it is a scary thought that my senior recital is just months away!! Yikes!
James has his permission jury next week - Elica passed hers with flying colors. That should be a fun recital to attend. My two favorite people performing together! It will be grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrreat! | | comments: Leave a comment |
|  Some people are scared of mice while others find them cute and cuddly. As a mouse, you forage for food and manage to sneek into everything, but prefer to stay out of sight. The phrase "quiet as a mouse" isn't for nothing, however surprise one and expect a squeek! Your small size is part of what makes you a mouse. You were almost a: Duckling or a ParakeetYou are least like a: Bear Cub or a TurtleTake the Cute Animal Quiz | | comments: Leave a comment |
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| I skipped class today.....oops.....oh well. I need to make up lots of homework in that class anyway. Now I am at work. Where do I work at?!?!?! (That was just for you ;D) So Jawames and I are watch the 2nd season of 24 - it is extremely suspenseful. I am glad that I am watching them in order - it is nice to have suprises in life :) We are both enjoying the 2nd season even more than the 1st. We're going to watch a whole disk! (In a southern twang)
Work is a little boring - it is slow right now... but I am not complaining. Tommorrow is my last day....and that makes me sad. But it also makes me happy :D You miss the people, but not the work. Tommorrow will be my last day to say "Graduate Business Programs, this is Samantha. How may I help you?"
Well that is all for now...............so long!!!!!!!! | | comments: Leave a comment |
| Well it isn't exactly all things, but there is going to be an end to a very important part of my life - I will no longer be working at the Graduate Business Programs. It is kind of sad, but I needed to quit. For the amount of hours I work...and the amount of money I get..... I just didn't have time to practice, and be there for my family anymore. Right now they need me. And I still need to work. I desparately need more time to practice. All fingers were pointing at my job. So I made the decision and God put another job right on my lap - Sweet Tomatoes! I can already see some of your eyes rolling - but it is such a blessing to me! My favorite guy and girl....plus the dough work there :) And just like the other job - I was hired right on the spot! God is so amazing - He rescued me from my turmoil. Thank you so much Lord for taking care of me! I love you so much! It was the very next day after feeling the lowest of low that God just took the wheel and said "Here is the answer." He answered my prayer the next day! I am so blessed.....I am so so blessed. And for the first time in almost a month I feel a little like my old self again. I am starting to feel like a person again, instead of a really stressed out machine.
Dad worked on a car yesterday with mom in his wheelchair! Ha! That's Dad for you. Geez.....
I feel like crawling into a ball and going asleep - now that my stress level is slowly calming down, I am becoming more and more sleepy - I probably have a lot of catching up to do on my sleep. I also feel tension releasing. *Deep breathe in...........Deep breathe out* | | comments: Leave a comment |
| I am so tired....last night was one rough night. I was so depressed, and I sort of still am. I am so sleepy........ I have a lesson tommorrow.......I hate all this crap. Oh well
On a good note, Dad is now at home! Yay! I know he is really happy to be home - he hates to be away from home even on nice vacations. I hope he is resting and living it up :) Thank you God for allowing him to come home and rest :)
I have to go to chorale.. yep yep....so I will smell you guys later :) | | comments: 1 comment or Leave a comment |
| it is mornings such as these that you wonder why? I get up this morning ten minutes after I needed to be LEAVING my house to go to work. I then get to work 15 minutes late (after not showering, throwing on clothes, and speeding), and thankfully no one was here yet. So only me, myself, and I know that I was late. I hope it stays that way :)
I feel so sleepy still.........I am not up really late at night; I don't know what the deal is. Maybe it is fatigue against school! school=yuck!
I have trumpet today *rolls eyes* I suck at trumpet. I think, though, that we DON'T have Percussion today. That will be flippin' awesome! Then I can practice......That just sucks. I get free time, and I have to practice! Being a piano major sucks! I want to go shopping, or better yet back to bed!
I don't think I am really awake right now. I need coffee...and food. I am so hungry. I also need gum. And a bed. This is going to be a long day....i can smell it in the air. And it doesn't smell like bagels or fresh coffee.....no it is a foul stench. The foul stench of reality. | | comments: Leave a comment |
| Now before I begin - if you truly know me, you will then know that I am not a racist - God created us all equally and the color of your skin does not make you any different than anyone else....
I read an article (completely biased article by the way) that President Bush was exposing his "racism" through his "neglect" of the blacks after the Louisiana hurricane. I understand that there are still racists people out there in this world, but I believe that it happens on both ends. Bush in NO way has displayed racism - our COUNTRY is pulling together and doing everything it can to help these people in need. Bush is not God - he is not responsible for all of the relief efforts that are taking place today. It is the state and charity that have the biggest hand in rescuing these people. But the federal government is also going to great lengths to help these people. Now survivors are being scattered to different hospitals, and even SCHOOLS so that their lives can go back to normal as much as possible. I never heard any comment by Bush stating to save the whites and leave the blacks to die - what a RIDICULOUS thought! It is sad to me when we make a horrible situation like this into ANOTHER race issue. I love each race of people - I love to see the diversity in all of God's creation and I am glad that the Civil Rights Movement happened. However, the purpose of the civil rights movement was for everyone to be judged equally - no one above anyone else. To be honest, I myself have experienced racism from blacks. I have had blacks DECIDE that I am racist because of the color of my skin. I even talked to them about it, and they became angry with me. And for some strange reason this isn't racism..... but it IS! Yes my ancestors probably owned slaves, but that is over and done! And I have never viewed any other race as being less than me. I believe the same racism is being applied to Bush and it is wrong. It is time to move forward, forgive and forget the past, and move forward. I am proud to have a president who doesn't crumble because of the "opinions" of the American people and stands up for what is right in our Lord's eyes. | | comments: Leave a comment |
| This is the passage I wrote in my xanga while my dad was having a stroke, but before I knew anything about it......
I have a lot of things going on in my life, and sometimes I get really down about it. Things are really hard, but the Lord is showing me more and more that He is faithful. This is one of the first times in my life that I can truely state that I don't know what tommorrow is going to hold. Not that I always knew the future, but most things in my life are very unstable. I believe I am going to go through a really rough trial where I am just going to have to trust the Lord and take it day by day. It makes me really sad, and sometimes really angry - but mostly it breaks my heart and makes me wonder why. The day I was born God knew I would endure this and so I just have to know that God is control.....even when everything is so chaotic. I just pray with all my heart that no one involved gets more hurt than they are right now....especially physically. Yet even though it is chaotic and really hard, God seems to be pulling me closer and closer to Him. I have felt His presence today more than I have in the past few months. I don't know why either, but probably because He knows I can't go through this without Him....and I told Him that the other day. Prayer is the key......
God is amazing... He was preparing me for this trial, and was giving me the strength I would need to get through it! What an amazing God we serve!! | | comments: Leave a comment |
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